SOB..sob

Sometime I being thinking
Why the God unfair to us
Why other people can have a gud family
They wan what can have what
They no need worry about money
But how about us
Evryday wakeup,I pretend Im happy
I act like a superman
Dunno why Im so tired
Im so unhappy
Im wan to cry
Im so useless

What can i do now
the thing are pass away
they wont come back againt
Evrybody only have 1 chance
If we miss it
Is nothing we can do anymore

This sem I think I will get bad result at all
Im suck of stupid
That day mine presentation
Im damn shame
All laught on me
But what can i do
All is laught with them
Im always like this
Talk so well,but
Never do it so!!
Dream, always dream
Shine tan only gud in dreaming
Nothing Gud on me againt.

Im giving myself freedom
Im giving myself become bad
Day pass a day
what am i doing??
Answer is nothing
Im wasting my time
I hate myself..I really wanna to beat myself
When can i wake up??
When can i be happy back??

I miss the moment when i being with my grandma
I want what she also will give me
when im sad she will say story to me
when im down she will pull me up
Beside me Im still have my grandma

Im so long did have this feeling at all
Mine family are not understand me
They duno what am i thinking
They even did try to make me smile when im sad
I Want back to before
I want stay 2gether with my grandma
even she are old
But she always is a gud listener
This call home..
What i want is only this moment!!

@night i will go beach with my wife
she are a gud listener also
Im happy to have her!!REALLY!!